A step in the right direction

This week has been truly challenging. My hysteroscopy was moved up to this week and I had to rush to get all of my pre-op tests done in one day (including a medical clearance). It all moved so fast, but my gynecologist urged me to take the empty slot for the week and I followed her advice. So, Thursday I had surgery and I was informed that the removed tissue is abnormal. I will need to wait until next Tuesday/Wednesday to find out the extent of the abnormality. Based on the findings, the next course of action will be decided. I was worried about my weight loss this week because I felt that I had so little control of my body this week. The only thing I had control over was my food intake and staying on program. The anesthesia had no lasting effect after the first day, so I am glad I did not have any complications from those drugs. However, I had to walk the dog this morning because I felt a need for a little exercise, since Curves is out of the question for now. So, four pounds down today and eight more to go to reach my 10%. And, I am almost to the next phase of my weight loss. But, I am glad to have weathered this storm but I think that the coming week will be even more challenging because my pathology report is coming in on Tuesday or Wednesday. I am afraid but I don't want to admit it. I even got on my mother's case for talking to people about me without my permission. Having to tell people I haven't told myself about my surgery just makes me have to tell people I am not sure of my future. And, I don't want to be unclear about my future--I have worked too hard to get here and I don't want something else to come in the way.